I remember a time when nothing else mattered except for my friends. I remember a host of sleep overs, bike rides, prank calls, sneaking to parties, lusting over boys, thong Thursdays, "Da Fam 105", and the list goes on and on and on and on (I am sure you get the point). I remember a time where nothing or no one could come between my friendships. I remember a time when I vowed that my best and closests friends would be my friends for life.
It all started at WMS or CBC. We all made promises to be there for each other no matter what. We promised to grow old together, raise our children to know each other, and just simply experience life together.
Here it is, 11 years later and things have drastically changed, people have changed, and friendships are no longer the same. I can't help but wonder, is it me? Did I do something to push these people away? Have I changed? I guess I can answer that last question. I am not denying the fact that 4 years of school in another state has indeed changed some part of me, but I'd like to think I blossomed into a beautiful woman, but maybe others do not share the same sentiment.
Perhaps, no one person is to blame. Could it just be that we have grown up and grown apart? We are experiencing different things in life. Some have entered motherhood, while others do not have the responsibility of taking care of anyone but self. Some have found companionship, true love, eternal bliss, and in some cases are now happily married. Some have graduated college and have started their career. Some are still chasing a dream. Some have experienced heart ache, heart break, and struggle. Some are simply, working and living life. But does that mean the friendship has to change?
The friend that you used to be able to share everything with or speak to every day is not available anymore. The friend does not return calls or share anything of substance with you. Your best friends have become acquaintences or even strangers. And what is even stranger is that you are now developing friendships with complete strangers.
I have always believed that some people are in your life for a reason and others for a season, but what if you're a big fan of summer nights, spring breezes, winter storms, and a colorful fall? Who determines who stays, who leaves, or who changes?
Maybe it is just me. . . perhaps, I am the only one that has drifted apart from a few people that are very near and dear to my heart, but then again, maybe I am not alone. . . .
If I am to blame, I sincerely apologize. I love you all.
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Sometimes individuals so wrapped up in their own lives, and in their own thoughts that they forget about being there for those that they were once there for all of the time. It's not an intentional thing that we as people do, but it's more so a balancing act. It's like when you are at work and you have one task that is important and needs to be completed like yesterday, but at the same breath your boss gives you another assignment twice as important... How do you do both at the same time, and get them both done in a sense of urgency.
ReplyDeleteAlso, some friendships are only for a season... as we grow older and mature, start families, begin our careers, or further our education... and goals, our friendships rotate and we look to people who share the same passions in life. We do this because we have people that we can relate to. It's not intentional it's just apart of life. Not saying that you can't be "frieds" still hang out here and there... but as they say life goes on... and friendships do as well.